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Free Ceschi Digital 7 inch

by Ceschi

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1.
Inside 04:13
"try try try again"'s easy to say when your body isn't broken and your feet aren't chained. but when you're mumbling "things will be ok" with a gun to your brain, things change. now i just want to control all this rage. there was a moment in time when i swore to my mom that i'd shoot a cop's face off or put a bomb in the middle of a federal court house in the name of Trayvon. when they glue your eyelids to your forehead and tape your mouth shut you can't say much so I'm just gonna keep faith in what i love. 
oh oh my my is there anything better that we can ever achieve in this whole whole lifetime ? i don't want to be another martyr for a cause that never grows grows wide wide don't tell me everything is gonna work out fine I could never find the time to design a time machine or rewind back into a better life those those bright lights all they're ever gonna do is blind eyes only really want to redefine my life as it sits on this timeline when i die I will explode into the night and take a few stars with me to show this world I put up a fight try try try again's easy to say when nobody's pulling teeth out of your bloody face with a razor to your neck watching you suffocate. "it'll be ok" that's what they all say. (inside me) there is a fire that won't stop burning try try try i swear i tried my best but was left on the side of the road with a hole inside my chest and a heart can only beat so fast 'fore it decides to rest when it's been so stressed and it feels like you're fighting for a single breath. am i becoming an animal clawing away underneath my cage? expecting to find something better outside of this world when i reach the grave? when the nihilism sneaks into my brain will i still keep on trying to convince myself that a human race can change? lord wont save me i could never put faith in make believe so don't go pray for me need to find the motivation just to get me to my feet growth has painfully taught me to lift myself up, even when i felt numb, when the tears have welled up in my eyes, bruises swelled up. grow those great seeds. vines can wrap around enemies. i don't mind if no one remembers me, but don't let this fire end with me. they can try to kill every single goal I've ever had, i'll just watch and laugh knowing that all vines grow back.
2.
Be A Memory 04:29
Be A Memory Ceschi: Only as free as the laws of nature allow us to be Wasting another lifetime fighting inevitability Moments of glory are short lived Deep breath - take it in Watched some great men fall feet first into the black abyss, Fists clenched, Swallowed by the monsters in their own heads, Since then Tried to learn their lessons But it seems I'm fenced in Left for dead Only mimicking actions that killed them Gregory Pepper: All my friends are jumping off of cliffs All my friends are smoking cigarettes Slow your roll man Pay that toll man All The neighbors kids are having kids Drawings made from paint and fingertips It's a crooked line so Just take your time So take your time. Follow a path as you walk past the river up in the morning and get from the giver. Both: Killing yourself was cool when you were young You were cool when you were young But slit wrists did not fix your ills Not 50 pills Not window sills Once you've sucked out all the thrills You're unfulfilled You're nothing still You're nothing still Ceschi: I want to grow a beard. I want to fall in love. Want to learn to appreciate beauty surrounding us. Nothing is trivial, Nothing's incredible Everything's working in conjunction to build the proper mold. All these days are gathering Behind us Bagging fallen leaves Right now will be a memory Right now will be a memory Wanted to become something bigger than me. Wanted to fight against everybody's destiny. Realizing every single second I breath is just another stab before death comes to take me. Seen loved ones become stick figures and skulls. Seen stereos get pawned for some drugs. Now they're gonna lock me up - I'm feeling so stuck - because I know inside that I never hurt anyone. This is only one page, one more day, feel my growing pains.. watch bones elongate... splinter through my skin... hair enveloping my face... canine teeth puncture through my gum space…. watch me bleed all over every crevice of this place. watch me prove you wrong - show my life is not a waste. I gotta give a fuck, gotta find it some way. I'm trying to give a fuck, gotta find it some way. Some way…. All these days are gathering Behind us Bagging fallen leaves Right now will be a memory Right now will be a memory

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These two songs were recorded directly before I went to prison in September, 2013.

At the time I wrote this
"These are the two latest songs I've recorded and the last I will record for a long time. I really hope you enjoy them.
Thank you ALL for your support during this crazy time.
You have no idea how much it means to me.
Til next time
-ceschi"

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released December 19, 2015

Track 1 was produced and mixed by Maulskull (maulskull@gmail.com)
Track 2 was produced by Cecil Tso (cecilptso@gmail.com), mixed by Gregory Pepper & Ceschi

Mastered by Deeskee (deeskee@hotmail.com)

Album cover by Tim Mannle (tbmannle@gmail.com)

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Ceschi New Haven, Connecticut

Ceschi (pronounced chess-key) Ramos makes his own version of progressive hip hop spliced with elements of folk & indie rock. Although he has almost "mathy" technical rap abilities he's first and foremost a singer-songwriter at heart. Although one Ceschi song may consist of punk influenced machine gun fast raps, the next may be a quiet folk ballad played on acoustic guitar. ... more

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